I'm going to seem really petty right now, but I sometimes get a bit jealous when I hear that other girls are on view and I'm not. I understand that its probably because they are all over 20 and I'm not quite there but surely someone is looking for an Au Pair without narrowing the search to Au Pairs aged 20 and over.
Although my 20th birthday is only 2 1/2 months away it seems like its going to take an eternity to arrive. This is probably one of the only times where I wish I was just that little bit older.
I truly believe that the perfect family for me is out there but where? and how long will it take for them to find me?
I am still 100% positive about being an Au Pair is the US of A but my family is starting to have doubts and that negativity can become so overwhelming sometimes that you just want to give up. Well I don't want to give up but I'm not sure how much long I can handle all of the negativity and cynicism.
Normally I wouldn't write anything like this but I guess I just needed to blow off some steam and get it all out before it becomes too much and takes over.
Much love,
Ashleigh Marie xo
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